♥SweetestDrug

Friday, December 31, 2010 ' 2:00 AM Y

my life my fairytale

I made decision . A decision to chase you out of my life .Reason? Because i want this to stop and move on with life peacefully . I sick of everything . So yes , I'm sorry if i was harsh to you but that's the only way i could think of and trust me , i feel guilty for doing this to you , and I'm asking an apology here because aku ego so taknak message . Sorry ):

And ya , I'm a hypocrite ? Haha , korek citer please . Ape siak aku hypocrite . Tak terima siak aku k takpe Gasak dia lah k . Like what i promise him , i promise not to disturb their life so I'm sorry if i didn't reply your message , Because i know if i were to reply nampak sangat kita contact balik . So ya , this time round I'm serious when i say i want us to stop contacting each other . And like seriously , you can say anything about me because your words don't bring me down . ((;

And thanks for everything all this while . I appreciate your concern and care but thrust me i can takecare of myself better . Takecare my friends , i wish the both of you all the best and last long it you guys were to patch !(:

Tuesday, December 28, 2010 ' 8:46 AM Y

my life my fairytale

I is very the boncet ! K diam (:

So went Ehub with Qaiyum today to watch movie , Gulliver's Travels . Since we had 1 hour before our show start , we went changi to have our late lunch . After that went back to ehub to catch our movie . After the show ends , we went to Changi Bench Club and slack there . We talk and make stupid jokes about me stomach -.-" . Suke lah kan kutuk perut aku ! Aku tahu lah aku boncet ! Haha . After that went home sweet home . Me is lazy to elabrote so ya ((:

Macam nak buang handphone boleh tak ?? Grr , irritating ar hp ni kadangkadang! Lag , jam , nak msg kadangkadang nak kene hentakhentak sia . Geram nye !

Sapesape countdown nak tengok fireworks ?? Yana nak tengok tapi takde teman ! Sedih kan , aku tahu . K bye (:

Sunday, December 26, 2010 ' 11:52 PM Y

my life my fairytale

*look* Gelap pe aku ! -.-"

Me stomach is cramp because of mensuration . I painpain . Haha , English broken i know . So basically I'm stuck at home since someone made a plan with others despite asking me to book today so we can go out together . Orang macam gini mintak sepak dahi ! -.-" But is ok , because I'm not feeling that well either so might as well stay at home and rest .

So yesterday was kendarat and me likeylikey yesterday because work was not that serious i mean work was so slack but our paid was hold back . K part ni tak suke . Qaiyum fetch me from work without me asking so thanks friend (: . Nak kuali yang pakai rendang tu tak so takyah nak pakai helmet ? Haha . He sent home and off he went meet his friend . Well I'm sorry for making you wait , blame Shaboy for that ! Hee , Sorry (:

My Saturday was spent with soccer peeps . Went sheesha with them . I had fun with them despite me not very close with them but they sure make my day . And i bump into papa at his shop there :) . Me rindu my father despite not close after my parents divorce . Zul tak habishabis nak angkat aku pasal adik aku ! Sepak kang . haha . Nak salam terus tak jadi eh ? Lol .And Afeeq semalam kau kurang ajar , haha cakap gitu pasal bapak aku , i sepak your botak head baru tahu ! haha .

Me think my throat is pain because of sheesha ); Tak best nye . K bye!

' 5:55 AM Y

my life my fairytale

Hey friend i think i like you . K fake ! Haha , Nehh i was just kidding but i like you as a friend because you sure knows how to make my day even by texting < 3

Me is not ready go love someone because me is scared to fall in the same old cycle which I'm in now and trying to get out from it . Is stupid you know , when you here thinking of that someone every now and then and he doesn't even care . I use to have this habit of deleting every single massage but yours i keep it . When i was bored i will read it back because somehow it make me smile , but since then i stop that habit because i don wish to read it again and again because it make me sad now and not make me smile like how it use to me smile . I still keep your sweet message and even those message which was hurting . i don know why i keep those hurting message of yours but i keep it in one folder . And our picture is still alive in my phone . But soon i will delete all those when you no longer mean anything to me but a friend . But i will keep at least one since we are friend and i wish to remember you as friend .

PS : I is tengah rindu orng ni .

Friday, December 24, 2010 ' 9:47 AM Y

my life my fairytale

Abe kalau mimpi pasal dorang lagi mcm mane ? -__________-

Irrits tahu takpe !

So basically my Friday was spent playing soccer at East Coast with soccer peeps . It was suppose to be the girls outing but since every each one of them paitau left me and Azu . Since Kyesha leave because she did not want to play with they guys . So the only girl was me and Azu . Semua ye ye je nak turun . Pantat ! After playing bath , then off to Mac to have our dinner . Slack for awhile before we went home . I had fun with them (:

K bye sorry for a very short post to lazy to elaborate on it too much . (:

Thursday, December 23, 2010 ' 8:20 AM Y

my life my fairytale

Saye seeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeedih !! )':

Kenapa ?? Pasal dorang !!

I just saw their picture together at her house celebrating her birthday and their face look so happy . I sooooo jealous and sedih ! I maybe be lying saying I'm okey and i don care about it but the fact i I'm not ok and i do care . By just viewing the pictures aku takde mood ! K diam !

I is rindu die please . Nak jumpa please . Kalau tak terserempak pon boleh !

K aku macam desperate nak jumpa die , k diam . K bye !

Wednesday, December 22, 2010 ' 11:57 PM Y

my life my fairytale

You can think whatever about me because you don't know anything at all . I don even care because you don't know what is it to be like to be in my shoe . Like seriously so just shut the fvck up . I'm sick and tired of everything . And if you no longer have any feeling towards me then don't be irritating to get jealous about whom i contacting now . Get it ? I'm sick and tired trying to takecare of other people heart while mind , nobody even cares . You don know how hard or easy for me to move you keep quite k .

PS: I is not interested in guys/relationship for now (:

Tuesday, December 21, 2010 ' 7:12 AM Y

my life my fairytale

Maybe i should just disappear from him . Well , i know how she felt having someone she loving contacting with someone whom use to be her rival in love . Ya , she may say this and that to me saying she don't mind and stuff , but the fact she really do want us to stop contacting . I have been there and i know really know what she really want . Ya lie all you want to me just remember you can't lie to yourself . Wondering why i am to nice to her and taking care of her heart ?? Nehh , i know what is like to be in her shoe . And i really do believe in KARMA and i wouldn't want to be in that situation again ever again . But , i seriously don't even know what to do . I have to takecare of their hearts while mine ?? Sape nak jaga hati Yana ? K i don't know what to do , anyone help ):

Monday, December 20, 2010 ' 8:06 PM Y

my life my fairytale

Guess what ? I dream about him again . Fvck that , hate that . In every single dream is like a nightmare i tell you . It always has to do with her . And i don't even now whats the meaning behind it . Maybe is just a dream a random one . But i don't usually dream about the same person 3 times in the same month . And it keep me asking it there a reason to it ??

*shouts* DON'T EVER COME TO MY DREAM AGAIN , IS A NIGHTMARE I TELL YOU !!

' 12:19 AM Y

my life my fairytale

I tak paham dengan you ! Seriously , you have her and why are you trying to make me stop having friends , going out with him when you and me are nothing more then friends . Just stop lah ! HIDUP AKU SUKE HATI AKU LAH !!!!!! Kau tak paham dengan aku , aku lagi tak paham dengan kau , kau da ada tu pompan da ar pergi jaga die tak perlu sibuksibuk jaga tepi kain aku . Kalau kau nak massage aku massage jangan nak kata aku mane nak massage lah blablabla . Nak massage je ar takmo nak kata " i nak kawan tetap msg u , u nampak sangat nak lupa kan blablabla" . Kau nak kau message taknk sudah . Aku tahu biler nk msg kau . Whatever lah . Macam nak tukar badan dengan kau . Biar kau rasa ape aku rasa . Irritating lah !! Pfft ! Leh jadi giler sia aku ! _|_

Sunday, December 19, 2010 ' 9:07 AM Y

my life my fairytale

You may be still contacting me but do you know that it felt so different now . Yes you make it sound so easy and is a must for you to find fault with me every single day . Why ? I don need you to do this ever now when we are just SIMPLY FRIENDS . Please stop , i had enough and i can't no longer take this . Just stop and i will be thankful . Why must you do this even when we are nothing to each other anymore but friends . Just stop since we are friends , i have my rights to lead my own life be it good or bad , my life my way . As a friend , you advise me not lead my life get that . And just stop acting as if you know what I'm feeling and stuff because the fact is you DON'T ! And if you were in my shoe , I'm sure you could be in tears . Tears will always be accompany me at night . Making sure i went sleep with it and i hate that , it make me so weak . I just hate this feeling , i miss him so freaking much and i don't even know how to let it go . And I'm wondering why i dream about them in my sleep TWO times . In both dream , she keep finding faults with me making me look bad in his eyes . And he listen to every word she say , and i get scolding by him real bad that when i woke up i was in tears . And , my heart was pounding very fast . I guess i miss him to much that i dream about him and there she is trying to break us apart even in my dreams . Hello is my dream don't disturb please ! Haha , well is not her fault that were are not lovers anymore , it was his and mine fault . I'm sure things will get better as things happen for a reason . I hope so .

PS : Boy , i miss you so much );

Thursday, December 16, 2010 ' 4:48 AM Y

my life my fairytale

Has been a while since i update this blog . I'm not busy but I'm just plain lazy to update it . And sometimes when i wanted to update it my mind will go blank . So that's explain why (:

So life been up and downs nothing much happen with just the same old things which keep on repeating it and I'm getting use to it i guess .

So well i went swimming with Hendra last Tuesday . And out of so many people i know , i bump into Kak Arini there . Swim from 12plus till 4plus . And k sumpah I'm scare off that purple and yellow slide . Jatung aku tertarik sumpah laju giler . And we play wrestling in the pool sekejap je sebab Hendra takut kalah . K fake ! haha . After changing we went to this place so called a nature of whatever . Sumpah nice ! We eat ,. we make noise , we play wrestling in that small orange sit , we watch the moon ok i had fun with you . Thanks ! And ya i saw a Little girl a cute little girl with cornrows at the pool . K I'm so jealous and I'm so getting that !!! I don care !!! NAK CORNROWS PLEAAAAAAAASE ! And ya i forget to take pictures . Damn it ! But is okeyyyyy (:

K bye (:

Saturday, December 11, 2010 ' 7:36 AM Y

my life my fairytale

Holiday has started and im stuck at home . Supposely to work but since Zack told me that we will be working as a promoter i change my mind . So last week was my last paper and im proud of myself that i manage to do . But there some quetions which i can't really remember and ya i pick them randomly . Hee . So lets just wait for result for the moment lets forget about school . I think i will be gaining weight during this holiday . Anyone nice , wanna be my trainer go gym everyday , I want 6pack can ?? Haha .

Thursday, December 9, 2010 ' 5:36 AM Y

my life my fairytale

Aku rindu die !

How ? );

Wednesday, December 8, 2010 ' 8:40 AM Y

my life my fairytale

I have one more paper to go tomorrow . And i proud to say i make an effort to study for today and tomorrow paper . Soooo wish me luck ! :D
Paper just now was manageable i guess . I think i manage to do the MCQ but when it come to section B i blank for the moment . Ok forget about today paper and lets do my best for tomorrow:)
Holiday is here and I'm going get myself busy with work . I don wish to stay at home the whole month besar kan perut . No thank , I'm getting bigger and i hate that ! :(
I got myself a job at Expo thanks to Zack and maybe will be starting this Friday , will have to confirm again . And weekends as usual kendarat . I hope by making myself busy, things will be much better . I just hope this end fast :)
K got to go sleep . Bye !

Tuesday, December 7, 2010 ' 2:30 AM Y

my life my fairytale

I seriously don't get you at all !! Like seriously and i get mad all over this , yes just because of this . Whats wrong with me moving on with my life , trying to forget you now that we are just friend ? I don't see why am i be wrong here . You have her now and i have my own life to led . Is that wrong ?? Moving on , forgetting you does not mean we can't be friends . I never even once said we are not allow to be friends . But about me wanting to forget you , is that wrong ? I just don't get you ! Yes , i admit maybe they way i text you is difference but please we are friends like how you and the other girls . Friends , in which way you don't get it ??? !!! I get tired trying to explain to you . And nak kata kau bodoh , tak bodoh . Nak kata pandai tapi tak pahampaham. Friends is that i led my own life and you led your own without anyone controlling . You get mad , u said this and that about me and Hendra . And eh aku nye suke lah aku dengan kau matae pe ???? Tak kan !!! Kau dah ada aini kan ape lagi kau nak sibuksibuk aku ni sayang sape ke ape . If you are just asking if ok but kalau kau jaga tepi kain aku please TAK PERLU OK !!! Ape salah nye ok nak lupa kan kau ?

Someone : that's why i say mcm cpt g2
hahahahaha
dri dulu kan u uke dier
tkpe
ckp laki senang lupe
pmpan lagi senang nk lupe
why sey .

Ape sia maksud kau . Tak leh ke aku nak move . Kau nak aku tehegahhegah pat kau abe kau dengan pompan lain ??? Bingetbinget !!!!

Just get this , moving on does not mean we can't be friends alright ! :)

Sunday, December 5, 2010 ' 5:04 AM Y

my life my fairytale

Went for a movie with this two idiots yesterday at Tampines Mall . Well Hendra and I was suppose to go Waterfront but since the weather wasn't on our side , he made plan with Arep to watch Movie . And we watched The Haunted House the Project . At first it was kinda boring but slowly , when at the in the middle of the show , it became moremore scary ?? Haha . Not really ar but the last part , was super funny . Kekek ! Hendra laugh like crazy , because i was shocked when a face suddenly appear in front of the screen and i shouted "maaaaaaaaaaak " hahah . Stupid!

K Bye ! (:

Thursday, December 2, 2010 ' 6:31 AM Y

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I kinda miss someone super much . I miss everything about you like seriously . Looks like you have move on with her for real and only for her ); . But is okay ,i will eventually move on soon . And please , stop all those like you "Mr Know everything" because you don't and not bit . Trust me you don't ! At All !!

And i can't wait to turn 18 , weeeeeeeee ~

Andand I'm sick !! -__-'

I can't think of anything to type now , so ya BYE! (:

Wednesday, December 1, 2010 ' 1:44 AM Y

my life my fairytale

I want cornrows please !!!!!!!!

Does ITE approve this kind of hair ? If yes , by today i want do can ?? Please say they approve !