Tuesday, November 23, 2010 ' 4:55 AM Y
my life my fairytale
Remember 'PakcikPakcik Dangdut ??"Knowing you trying so hard to change for her , I'm happy for you . Knowing you trying to do something to get her love back , I'm happy for you . But please , don't act as if you know what I'm feeling right now , because you don't ! You don't even know what and how I'm feeling right now !
So please stop acting like MR KNOW EVERYTHING !! Hate that !
I'm so not over you , I'm so not ! But I'm not going to show that to you . I'm not going to show that I'm weak , hurt , mad , sad and etc . Because , i don't want to turn out weak in front of you . Every night , i don't seem to be able to control my tears . Without me realising , tears will start rolling down on my cheeks and eventually i will cry my self to sleep . Every now and then when i read her blog , my heart just hurt so freaking much knowing that you are happy with her with other girl and not me . I can't bear to go through this is just hurting me too much . Oh god please make this end , i don't wish this to continue . I can't no longer take it . Make my feelings for him disappear please ! I swear i never did love someone this much , his the first guy which I'm into deeply . Am if only you knew how i felt... );
Remember 'PakcikPakcik Dangdut ??"