Saturday, November 27, 2010 ' 10:00 PM Y
my life my fairytale
Don't bother reading i just elaborating whats happening yesterday (:I had an awesome day yesterday with Hendra and friends . They sure make my day better and for the moment i thought you never exist ! And when is home time , you came back into my mind and keep me thinking of you again . Fvck that !! So we went Grandlink and it was a last minute plan . In the morning Hendra text and asked if I'm free today so that he could book me first if their plan worked out . Since i was free and wanted plans to go out i agree and waited . And at 2pm he text saying to meet them at 3pm atYishun . But i meet them at 32.47 instead . Can't be blame as i had to bath and stuff and i was stuck on a traffic jam . Meet them then train-ed to Paya Lebar . Since Asri and Esha was late , we went for our lunch at Ananas . And wasn't be able to make up my mind what to eat , i skipped my lunch instead since i wasn't that hungry . But Hendra keep giving me food haha . After eating meet them and off to Grandlink . Book for 2hours . Sing sang blablabla and i have 3 blueblack on my hand thanks to Hendra ! I still own you two !!! Wait and see I'm going get my revenge ! Haha . After that train-ed to City Hall since Hendra wanted to buy a new wallet . Then eat our dinner at Long John Silver and ya thanks alot for forcing me to eat and eat until i can't !! Haha . Keluar dengan Hendra kene perut kosong sia kalau tak mati aku kekenyaan !!! HAHA After that sit behind Marina Steps for the moment . After then we decided to head home . And guess what ??? I took the wrong train home . I went to take the train which go toward Jurong . Nasib aku prasan kalau tak da sampai jurong baru perasan . Hahah .
I had fun with you guys ! So looking forward for the next outing! And Hendra Waterfront !!!! (:
Friday, November 26, 2010 ' 5:15 AM Y
my life my fairytale
Since i have no school today , i stay home and revise my work ! Good girl huh! :D
But there still so many things which i don't know about my course . Blame me for not listening to teacher when she is teaching . Well my fault so i have to do double the work if i want to get 2.5 and above for my GPA . I would love to go to higher nitec and if it is possible i wound want to go to poly :) . And there still alot for me to study so i have to force myself to get away from my lappy for the moment and is hard . Haha .
And ya , i want keep myself busy with studies , things or whatever to get you out of my mind . Look like I'm wrong . I thought it would be better without you . But I'm wrong , it feels so different . Although we still keep in contact with each other , it just feel so different .
Aini you are one lucky girl to have him by your side , so appreciate him and never take him for granted :)
Well , for now i don't wish to be in love at the moment . Because my heart still belong to him and is just one sided love .
And hey , i kinda miss you nagging at me );
Tuesday, November 23, 2010 ' 4:55 AM Y
my life my fairytale
Remember 'PakcikPakcik Dangdut ??"Knowing you trying so hard to change for her , I'm happy for you . Knowing you trying to do something to get her love back , I'm happy for you . But please , don't act as if you know what I'm feeling right now , because you don't ! You don't even know what and how I'm feeling right now !
So please stop acting like MR KNOW EVERYTHING !! Hate that !
I'm so not over you , I'm so not ! But I'm not going to show that to you . I'm not going to show that I'm weak , hurt , mad , sad and etc . Because , i don't want to turn out weak in front of you . Every night , i don't seem to be able to control my tears . Without me realising , tears will start rolling down on my cheeks and eventually i will cry my self to sleep . Every now and then when i read her blog , my heart just hurt so freaking much knowing that you are happy with her with other girl and not me . I can't bear to go through this is just hurting me too much . Oh god please make this end , i don't wish this to continue . I can't no longer take it . Make my feelings for him disappear please ! I swear i never did love someone this much , his the first guy which I'm into deeply . Am if only you knew how i felt... );
' 4:28 AM Y
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Koooooooooooooooooooooooooorang !!!!!!!
Buat outing ar ! Aku rindu korang sangatsangat . Da tk sekolah kan yang budakbudak Sec , buat plan after budak ITE habis exam kkkkk ??? :D
Gaaaaahhhhhhh ! Aku stress sangatsangat ! Nak tahu kenapa ? Exam coming and i have not even start revising . Satu benda haram dalam buku aku tak paham ! And project are so freaking annoying . Lepas satu da habis , yang lagi satu timbul . Irritsirrits !!!
Mama !! I feel like quitting ite and go back to secondray school can or not ?? Ite mendak !! Macam menyesal kan tak repeat sec4 kalau tak da habis Nlevel sekarang . Grr ! Stupid me , so much of better in hands on . Hands on ke tak same je . Tetap kau lembab sia Yana ! -______-
The only thing which keep me coming to school is my friends . Well ite might be boring and stuff but with those classmate around me , they sure make my day brighter :D
KBye! :D
Monday, November 22, 2010 ' 7:08 AM Y
my life my fairytale
Remember this ? Well i did , it was our first picture taken by Syazwan candid at bedok Mac . The times when we were still contacting as friend , trying to know more about each other , I swear i miss those times . You were such a sweet guy and such a caring guy . I remember the first time i saw you , well it was kind of embarrassing for me because i was about to fall and you were behind me with your pose wanted to catch me the moment i fall . Haha . And remember the lollipop when Ad snatch it away from and cause it to broke . You pass it back to me and apologies on his behalf . Remembering all that , i miss Bedok and spending time with you back then . But everything seem to change in a blink of eye . We were arguing more then we talk . And everyday seems to be the same . We never fail to find fault with each other . Despite all that argument/fight it make me love you more and more and make me not want to let you go . But the moment i get to know about your ex , everything seem to change . And now , we are only friends .
If only i could wish .... Dream on Yana . Move on....
Sunday, November 21, 2010 ' 6:57 AM Y
my life my fairytale
Well i assume you we are just friends now , since you have already told her that we are just simply friends now . So i guess we are and this time is for real . Well i regret every single time waiting for you and ending up in this state . You won't know how it felt like until you went through the same shits that I'm going through now . My heart are broken into tiny little pieces and yet you over there happily with her . Well i know you are are trying to prove to her and trying to get her love back . Well i hope you succeed in doing that . All the best . I thought you were different but nehh you are just the same like them . I'm stupid to believe you back then . So stupid that i ended up in this state . And all thanks to you ShafulNizam !
Well we promise each other that we won't leave each other but yadaa , this happen . You keep repeating those lines (you know yourself better) to make me feel guilty when i wanted to leave you . But without me knowing , you yourself have thrown me away from your heart . It show me clearly , yesterday ,that you love me no more . And you lie to me that you still do . Well , you never change , you kept lying to me over and over again . Remember , when you were still attach without me knowing , you looked for a new entertainer (thatsme) and now after she came back to you , you throw me away .
Well is okey , i believe in karma and one day karma will get you and you will feel you own medicine .And by then , i will sit back and watch .
Labels:If i were to treat you the same way you treat me , you will hate me .
' 1:05 AM Y
my life my fairytale
I love my Family . Do you ??
I'm bored and I'm feeling so down . Have yet to get over about yesterday . Like seriously i Hate yesterday ! Can i forget yesterday ??!!
I want go farfar away from here can ? I don' wish to stay here . I want go farfar away form you !
I hate you like not! . Haish , please make me hate you . Please make me forget about you . Don't text me and stop giving me missed call . Irritating lah . Just don't bother about me . Fvck you go go go go go go go go go , GO AWAY !!!
So ya i bought my shoes ! Happy sekali , tapi orang yang saya ajak teman tu salah orang ar . Tahu tak ajak kau ! If you want to accompany me , then bear with it . Nak mengamokmengamok pergi balik sudah ! GeramGeramGeram !!
And ya you purposely did that right ? You love doing things to hurt me right ?
K whatever nak pedihpedih pulak .
Exam coming and i have yet to start any revision . Gossshh !
K bye ! :D
Saturday, November 20, 2010 ' 10:48 PM Y
my life my fairytale
The moment i notice something on your finger , i knew something has change . And the moment you start ignoring all that when i have told you a thousand times , i knew something has change . And the moment you answer that question of mine , i knew everything has change .
I know i have said i wouldn't want to wait for you no more but is hard you see , because the fact is my hearts still belong to you . And i tried so hard to forget you but it doesn't seem to work . I'm sorry but i can't hold back my tears , is just seem fvcking hard and you just don't seem to notice it and even care .
And YES ! I HATE YESTERDAY !!! FVCK YESTERDAY !!
Friday, November 19, 2010 ' 2:46 AM Y
my life my fairytale
Guess what ?? I think I'm starting to hate guys . I don't know why is just that they sux and most of them are just the same . MOST not all . Andand ya ya , i hate people who hate me because of a guy . Please ar irrits sia orang ni macam . Jangan step kenal aku ar nak cakap aku nye orang suke flirt . BODOW ! Andand i also hate , Lagilagi yang ini . Tak kenal tak ape , tak pernah jumpa atau nampak tak tentu pasal benci aku . And semalam first time nampak aku step mane nye friendly je . Sepak dahi kau baru tahu !! Irritsirrtis !!!
Haha , irrits pe semua pasal hate , k whatever :D
Lets talk about me , life been great with great people around me who never fail to make me happy . But love life still remain the same . But I'm sorry to say this but i have make up my mind I'm no longer interested to wait for you no more . Well , i give up :D
And now , i don't think there is any third party holding you back since i have made a decision to step back and move on with my life . LOVE is so troublesome and so heart breaking . And especially those LOVE TRIANGLE sux even more . Thrust me , is not easy to do this , but i wouldn't want this to go on forever . So I'm making my mind up , I'm moving on with my life without you . You can say anything that you feel like it . Because you words won't bring me down . My life and my decision . I don't own anyone an explanation . And seriously leaving you is hard so please don't make things even harder , you know what i mean right . Lets stay as JUST FRIEND and not more . Don't worry i will move one and forget you and you should do that too . And please , love one girl ONLY in future , Thanks :D
Tuesday, November 16, 2010 ' 7:10 AM Y
my life my fairytale
If only you knew , i bet you will stop me . But I don't wish this to continue . I want this to end real fast . I'm sick and tired of everything . If only you were in my shoe , you will understand why I'm doing this . I hate to do this , all i did is just hurting myself . Tell me do anyone in the world love hurting their self for nothing ? I don't think there is , if there is i guess there something wrong with that person . HAHA . Sharing someone you love with someone else is not something fun to do and it can led to heartbreaking and etc . And that sux to the max max maximum ! But its okey , ENDURE is all i need to do .
Ps ; If only you knew why ...
Tuesday, November 9, 2010 ' 5:50 AM Y
my life my fairytale
I came across someone blog and read them . And it happen this someone want sooo much to spend time with his/her Dad whom going away for a few years for a reason . And when i read somehow it make me sad when some people their Dad is still right infront of them where they can easily meet him but they don't even try make an effort to . And all they did was visit him once a year during Raya . Would you like if your son/daughter did that to you ? How would you feel ? Have you ever think about his feeling ? I doubt so . Are you that busy with your work that you can't even call and asked how is he doing and etc ? Ni lah orang , da besar dah pandai dah senang , lupa kan darah daging sendiri and even worst is that he is your DAD . Seperti " Kacang lupa kan kulit " . Is sad to see this happening in front of you . Even when he say that he doesn't care , let me tell you , he does . And is so obvious he is hurting by the way you guys treat him . Well i hope Karma get both of you and you will come begging him forgiveness . I just hate this kind of people . He's you biological Father mind you !
Sunday, November 7, 2010 ' 2:40 AM Y
my life my fairytale
Baby look into my eyes and tell me you love .
Its hurts when you no longer trust me like how you do back then . I swear it hurts me . But did you care ? No don't think so . I think you don't . You keep repeating the same thing . Like hello , i have feeling , and it hurts me every time you doubt me . Yes , i know I know I'm contacting with other guys now apart from you . But when i say i treat them as friends , i really do . Do i treat them like you ? NO . Do i love them like i love you ? NO . Do i care for them like i care for you ? NO . No , i don't treat them like i treat you . I treat only you special because you meant everything to me . But all you did is doubt me . Why ? Simply because you don't trust me . You said , i change . Yes i know i change but do i want to ? No , it happen without me realizing . And i have been trying so hard to be the old me whom you know but you never did notice it and all you did now is finding fault with me every now and then . I'm sick and and tired of it , fighting and arguing with each other for almost everyday . I no longer see love but all i see is us fighting every SINGLE DAY ! I miss the old us , the times we jokes around and etc . And now all is just stupid fights and did you notice it when we fight , we are fighting for the same old thing . Is annoying when we keep arguing for the same thing every time . I know I'm not good enough for you . And I know I can not longer take care for you like how i did back then , you say so yourself . Its ok , its alright . I will just e n d u r e everything .
Thursday, November 4, 2010 ' 2:37 AM Y
my life my fairytale
School last for 2hrs today . And i was late so which means , i come for only 1hrs lesson . Or shall i say , came school but all i did was facebook-ing . Mendak giler , i know .
I miss my botak pet ! Ya , yesterday was not enough . Well i hope , he is free tomorrow to accompany me . Andand i wish spent time with him alone which i mean , i want you and me alone without any friends of yours along . Get it ? Sekali pon tkpe lah , because when you with your friends , i feel left out . Kau layan kawan kau aku layan diri aku . Diaaaaaam je nanti mood aku tibatiba hilang and nanti tibatiba gaduh -_-"
Oh oh oh . I'm just worried about ...... isssh nevermind .
K bye !
Wednesday, November 3, 2010 ' 5:55 AM Y
my life my fairytale
Had a short meet up with Am just now at ITE simie . He went there for some career show , since is nearer to my place i meet him . And well , since i finish earlier then i expected , bus-ed to ITE Simie with Suzana . While waiting for bus , i was feeling quite nervous about meeting him as if it was our first meet . Feeling excited and nervous . Is kinda puzzle me because all this while i had never feel that way if i were to me him but today seems different . Whatever it is , I'm happy enough that he asked for a meet up :D
Meet up there , after then went to Eastpoint for our lunch . Since Am have been craving for sushi , bought for him sushi . After we bought them , we meet the rest at banquet . And Am had to make all kind of " enjoying his sushi expression" try to imagine that . Kinda cute but at the same time , mintak kene sepak . HAHA ! After eating his sushi , he went to order a plate of noodle ape tah . And i get myself one to . Not even half of my food touch , i lost my appetite . I have no mood to eat and started playing with my food . I even try forcing myself to eat since i find it a waste to throw it away . But i was scolded by Am for playing with my food and forcing myself to eat it . But like always i deny it and say i was not . Lol . But die tak bodoh ok . After eating sat there wait for Asri . And like so not us if in a day if we don't fight or perangai . Well this time is my fault i know , but eh dengan aku pon maseh nak message die ke ?? Grr . Well it last for only a few minute of me ignoring him and perangai . Soon we were ok , but i still did not manage to get my mood back . I'm sorry Pet .
Right now , I'm so worried for you . I wish i could do something to help you and your family . I pity you and your family ): Hope everything end fast . Lets pray for miracle to happen .
Andand aku sayang kau k bye ! (:
Tuesday, November 2, 2010 ' 9:25 AM Y
my life my fairytale
Had a short meet up with Feeqa and Iella just now at Downtown East . Since the accident , downtown seem to be lacking of people . So the sunyi there . LOL . Went behind Burger King sat there talk while copying notes . Talking to them really make me feel better because they truly understand how i felt all this while . Especially Feeqa , she really feel me because we are in the same situation . I was super frustrated just now , feel like punching someone face until his / her nose senget! Grrr , geram aku ! Since Feeqa had to go home and study at 7plus we went off . Well at least i feel better after talking to them . Lets meet up again this time with with the rest .
Btw MUZZ aku rindu kau oi !! Meetmeetmeetmeet :D
' 6:16 AM Y
my life my fairytale
I'm so sorry for what happening to your family now . I feel so bad now for making you mad and stuff . See , you must share things with me Pet , when i don't know things , i will tend to shoot words which can make you
frustrated and sad . I hope , you and your family is strong enough to go through this .
Take care of
ibu and your sister alright . Cheer up Am .
If you need a ear to listen on ,
I'm here . If you need a shoulder to cry on ,
I'm here too ,
I know you are strong to go through this (:
Since i have no school today , i stay home and revise my work ! Good girl huh! :D
Remember 'PakcikPakcik Dangdut ??"
Koooooooooooooooooooooooooorang !!!!!!!
I love my Family . Do you ?? 
School last for 2hrs today . And i was late so which means , i come for only 1hrs lesson . Or shall i say , came school but all i did was facebook-ing . Mendak giler , i know .
I'm so sorry for what happening to your family now . I feel so bad now for making you mad and stuff . See , you must share things with me Pet , when i don't know things , i will tend to shoot words which can make you frustrated and sad . I hope , you and your family is strong enough to go through this . Take care of ibu and your sister alright . Cheer up Am .